Tired

These past few weeks I have felt so down and tired for some reasons. I went to church and someone noticed and asked if I was o.k. becuase I looked really down for two weeks she said. I just told her that I was hungry because I didn't have breakfast before I went to church. Well that's not a lie! I just didn't really feel at the time that she wanted to listen about it. I have my own theory ,based on my personal experiences of course, that I usually feel better if someone answers me "I am doing just find!", "Awesome", or I am great other than "I am alright", "it sucks", or something like that when I ask -How are you?- you know. Well, I don't mind at all if their answers are not positive because we are people. We all have good and bad days but sometimes I just choose not to tell people something that is not very joyful. So,yea that's my excuse for not telling her how exactly I felt. Anyway, after church there was a long meeting and I got really bored but then Elder Sadler called me up on my cell-phone and asked me if I wanted to help him and his companion teach... well... to be honest I didn't really want to go just because I felt kind of bored about the church (that's bad, I know!) but because I was really close with Elder Sadler and he really sounded like he wanted me to help him out, so I accepted his invitation.

Elder Sadler has become my hero for a couple of months now. Not only because he has got such a great skill in speaking the language and teaching, but he is so sincere and caring and different than other missionaries. Don't get me wrong now, I love other missionaries too and some of them are my heroes but in different ways, you know. Elder Sadler is very talented. He plays the guitar so well and he's fun to be with. I love his honesty. Basically, he's my really good friend, even though I am not sure if he considers me the same but the point is it doesn't matter anyway. I remember one day something was bothering me badly and I was very unsattled (spelling?). Elder Sadler and his companion sat down with me and talked with me for a while, I really felt their sincerity, even though they told me that they didn't have anything much to do and it's good to kill the time with me, just kidding. And I felt much better afterward.

Enought about Elder Sadler, well.... so today I went out with Elder Sadler and Elder O' Brian and Elder Sadler asked me to summarize the idea or teaching of the Atonement. I explained very simply word by word just like when I was a missionary in San Francisco only was it in English. During the explaination I realized the truth of it myself. I felt better afterward but another cool thing is that the investigator asked me to write what I taught him down and bring it to him next time because he was touched by it. I thanked him, thinking that it didn't only help him but it also helped me tremendously.

There are many instances of how the gospel brings us true happiness. I, again, witness of the reality of the church. I know the church is true. Thank you Elder Sadler and Elder O'Brian for inviting me today to help me feel better and gain a testimony of the Atonement.